“I don’t see myself getting married much before I’m 26. I won’t have the time, and, besides, I’m not mature enough to be nice to anyone else. I like being alone, without anyone to bother me. What if I got married to someone who wouldn’t let me lock myself in my room for six days and read?”—Jodie Foster, 1983 (via austinkleon)
Last night Eric asked, "are you sad?" .. To which I replied, "sometimes."
For reasons unresolved, three months since moving into the City, I still find myself crying at times in two of what seems to my favorite places to jerk a few tears: the infamous subway, and the gym.
I don’t think I’m that weak. And I hate projecting myself as this struggling artist/person. But being so far away from home, this still feels very real.
I may look like I have my things together, with all the “cool things” I’ve been uploading on fb mobile. I like sharing some of these things I’ve come across to family and friends — it’s a way for me to feel connected, sharing some those experiences. That’s if anyone’s paying attention.
But on a bright note, I am doing well professionally, landing a recent job at MoMA, too many internships to keep up with and grad school has been an ongoing developing process, where I’m learning and finding new ways to express myself.
Well, just a quick update before I stuff some sushi in my mouth and head off to work.
“True freedom and the end of suffering is living in such a way as if you had completely chosen whatever you feel or experience at this moment. This inner alignment with Now is the end of suffering. Is suffering really necessary? Yes and no. If you had not suffered as you have, there would be no depth to you as a human being, no humility, no compassion. You would not be reading this now. Suffering cracks open the shell of ego, and then comes a point when it has served its purpose. Suffering is necessary until you realize it is unnecessary.”— Eckhart Tolle
“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.”—